Abuela, Abuela, Abuela

i tell you, living with this lady is a new experience everyday. since Lala & i have been staying with her, i have decided to get to know her a little better. i've been asking her questions about her youth, when she met my father's father {will explain as to why i don't say grandpa later}, how she ended up with her friend's man, her second marriage, her daughters & my dad & his sister that she left behind because she was unable to support them & their father dumping them on his sister & her husband.

my life as well as my family's life is a soap opera in its self. you may thinking i am being dramatic but if you read what i wrote above you will see that it's not & the sad part is that that is only the half of it. i haven't even mentioned the drama that is going on with my mother's side of the family in DR. everyone is fighting over my aunt's will & everyone wants to sell the properties that she has so that they can get the money. certain people shouldn't get shit cause they don't deserve it, what they do deserve is for my aunt to appear to them in their dream & whoop their ass. but that's my opinion as mommy says.

anyway back to my grandmother, love her to pieces but i have to wonder about the choices that she's made in life. i asked her this morning about why she never went back to get her 1st 2 kids from jackass. all she said was that time was really rough & that jackass said that if she didn't want to be with him then he didn't need to give her & her kids any money for support. so she left him as well as my dad, as for my father's sister-well she said she say him on day on the streets & cursed him out & he told her that if she wanted support for him she had to take him to court, she did & the judge gave him custody of their daughter. which in turn he sent his daughter to his sister's house for awhile & then to his aunt's to live permantly.

it sucks being in the middle of the drama knowing how everyone really feels about the next person & not being able to say/do anything. not my place to say anything & i learn that the hard way. i told my dad something that his sister said not thinking that i would get the reaction i got & left with the impression that that was the biggest mistake i had made. so for that reason alone i have decided to mind my business & just keep everyone's conversations to myself until i feel the time is right.

now as to my i will never call that jackass my grandfather. this moran used to live with us {mother, father, myself & older brother} back in the day. from the stories i have heard i was a bit of a pain in the ass bacause i would never stop crying & it drove him crazy {i was a few months old for Christ sake} anyway, one summer {1991} my dad took me & my brothers to DR for the summer. we went to jackass's house to meet the family because it had been some time since they last saw us. do you know that this moran had the nerve to say that he didn't know my dad had a daughter right in front of me {bastard}. the hurt was just all over my face & my dad just looked @ me like "it's going to be alright" then jackass wanted us to give him the blessing {spanish thing}. told him hell no & my dad was like "maureen" i just said hello & kept in moving.
the second encounter was about 3 yrs. my grandmother had passed away. so me, mommy & lala flew to DR for the services; my dad happended to be in DR @ the same time & wanted us to come visit for the weekend. so lala & i did, once again my dad took us to his father's house {this shit is funny} & he just looked @ us & asked my step-mother if i was her daughter. can u believe this son-of-a-bitch, my step-mother told him to look @ me real carefully & asked him to think. his answer, she must be your niece cause i have never seen her before. my dad just looked me cause i was laughing @ how stupid he was going to look once i told him. i told him no that his son was my father & that the little girl was my daughter. this bastard had the nerve to start saying "oh my god, i have a great-granddaughter..i never thought i would have seen the day." told him that he probably wouldn't because she is not his great-granddaughter, how can she be when you didn't even know you had a granddaughter. whatever..it's been a year since he passed i can't mourn/miss someone i never knew