An Unexpected Death

This afternoon, while @ work my cousin called to talk to me about our cousin's death. I on the other hand was confused because he passed away last night & no one called me to tell me. so you can imagine, when my cousin called me looking for answers.

"What happended? I can't believe Dave died"
"What? What are you talking about? Stop playing. Who told you that?"
"Your brother called me last night, didn't you speak to your brother?"
"Yea, and he didn't mention that".
"What time did you speak to him?"
"Around 9 something, what time did he call you".
"He called late, around 11".
"No one called me, I can't believe no one called me. That can't be right. I have to call Mommy & see what's going on. She didn't even call & tell me".
"Call me back"

I called mommy & asked for my brother, mommy said that he went to work. She couldn't believe that he went to work because he didn't take the news well @ all. My aunt called mommy to tell him the news, but mommy said that she would break the news to him. Mommy said that he went off, cursing to high hell, slammed the door to his room & just stayed there for awhile. After a few minutes, he got on the phone & called my 2 of cousins. He was so stressed after the call that he just didn't want to talk about it. That is why he didn't call me.

My brother & Dave & Gee {cousin that called me} are very close. If you know my brother, you'll know that he is very anti-social. I haven't seen my brother this sad since our favorite uncle died years ago {I'm talking mid 80's}. Seeing my brother hanging out with them was like watching kids in a playground, just having a good time & not a care in the world. Not having Dave around & the reason for his sudden death is really taking a toll on him.

On Sunday Rodney & Gee went to went to the hospital to see Dave. Mommy said that when he came back home, he didn't look well. Didn't even eat & my brother loves to eat {especially mommy's cooking} instead he went to the room & just stayed there. When he finally came out of the room, mommy asked him how Davie was doing & he just said not good @ all. The nurse said that he can hear people talking & that they should speak to him & try to lift his spirits. I called later that night but he didn't want to talk, told him that I was stopping by on Monday & he said fine. On Monday, he was going into details about Dave & his condition & he said that he didn't look well & that this Sunday Dave would have been in the hospital for a month.

Monday is the wake & Tuesday is the funeral.

R.I.P Dave & remember that you will be missed by family & friends.
Things will not be the same for Rodney & Gee. Be their Guardian Angel & I thank God for the time that we had together.

Heath Ledger Died @ 28

he was so young & talented; so sad about his untimely death. last night i couldn't sleep thinking about him & his daughter. his daughter is only 2 yrs. old & will never really get to know her father.

made me think about Lala, what if something happended to me. would she remember me, all the good & bad times we shared, would she think i was a good mom to her, would she hate/blame me for leaving her @ an early age. after a bit of tossing & turning, i got out of bed & went to her room. just stood by the door looking @ her & how peaceful she looks sleeping, even though she was@ the edge of the bed & about to meet the floor for-the-who-knows-how-many-times {had to stop counting cause she was getting mad}. i went over to her & stroked her hair then picked her up & took her to bed with me. I just wanted to hold her & have her next me, you know to cherish every moment. she eventually woke up & was mad, "i'm sleepy" is all she could tell me. i told her to hug me cause i needed a hug, she did for a minute then pulled away from me & gave me Sydney {her koala bear}. "here mommy, i'm sleepy". had to smile @ her bad ass & told her "i love you".

i always remind her that she is for sale but we all know that their is no price for my lil diva. she might be a pain @ times but she is also the most loving person you'll come across. can't imagine my life without her & i am sure that she she thinks the same.